叔叔

有一个智障的叔叔，
看到他每天旧那么躺着
什么都不能做
在想，叔叔你的脑袋在想什么。。。
空空的就这样？？
看看自己，我呢？
我又在想什么。。。
可以正常思维的我们，
是否静静的想过，
我们要的是什么。。。

看着他。。。只能默默的说
祝福你。。

霉运是时候走了

突然间遗失了所有最重要的东西真的真的很烦。
科技发达，
但是遗失了smart phone真的可大可小
里面储存了太多太多东西
还会担心是否还有什么见不得人的东西
是否还有什么重要的password.
也有再次遗失了全部号码。。。

要去警察局
要去bank
要去学校的pejabat
这里那里全部都要redo....

最近真的不懂怎么了
希望这一丢
把近来的霉运都丢掉。。。。
那么，遗失了加加起来正千块就值得了。

现在才想的种种如果已经很不现实
教训是
珍惜当下的决定
不要再一味的犹豫、执著
幸好只是物质上的东西。。。。

今天有得忙了
希望我真的吸取教训。。。
最要记得的是
凡是没有最好最完美的

谢谢关心我的人
那气人的弟弟还陪我去找
谢谢了！！！

五月一日-劳动节

哈咯！各位朋友，叔伯兄弟姐妹，大家还好吗？？

今天是劳动节，难得假期没有回家。现在的确感觉很轻松。

这个学期是我实习的学期，不知不觉已经第三个月了。感想是做工了，真的很累。

每天上班9am - 6pm,刚开始以为没有得睡午觉真的很不习惯。有时会在公司，坐在电脑前，那头不听使唤的不停的点呀点，[我睡着了，真不好意思]。

做工呢，出门的时间也少了。晚上回到房间，精疲力竭，只想要好好地躺着休息。最期待的莫非是周末的时间。但是，粘家的我，每个周末都会回家报到。回家又是没有得休息，妈妈要照顾孙儿，我就帮帮忙做家务，一闲空就对着电脑打game。

上几个星期开始，时间表真的排得满满的，每个晚上放工后还是有节目，就连周末也不放过。前一个周末，去sunway,又去做卫塞节义工。前两天的周末，又有gathering在怡保，星期日邮周日班。虽然是做着开心的事，然而，身心还是会反抗的说：“主人啊！我累了。”

今天5月1日劳动节-终于可以睡到自然醒。今天也没什么活动。一整个早上，无所事事，整个感觉好轻松、好舒服。第一次体会到劳动节的重要，劳动节的神圣。也幸好今天没有回家，不然还是没得休息，一空闲就对着facebook game [usm block 了facebook game]。

好久也没有游泳了，肚腩开始微涨了。傍晚就来闲闲的到泳池沐浴一番。

真的好开心地悠闲，要去泡杯咖啡点缀点缀这悠闲的时刻了。

记得，适时地放慢脚步。玩乐虽然开心，但是要照顾好为你效劳的身心哦！！

师资培训营

星期日刚从一天半的营回来。这个营呢，在几年前就有看过了，也没有印象是什么原因都没有机会参与。一天半的营的确有点匆促，什么东西都只是蜻蜓点水。毕竟老师要教给我们的东西太多了。太深入的教，时间不够。不点那么多东西呢，又恐怕带给我们的东西不多。

但是，从我本身的角度来看，他们的确很充足的准备啦。而且，听两位老师（燕儿、旭宾）说，此营是他们首次，两个人，"双"抢匹马上阵。可见他们是多么的用心，单凭这一点，我就会对于可能一些小小的不足，给予原谅了。

第一次，与其他佛教团体的周日班老师接触，才惊觉个团体的行政、上课、活动、甚至师资有那么大大的不同。原来，是我们才有那么flexible的时间表。有个其他团体的老师问我："就是说，你一个月只有去一个星期日，其他三个星期，都很得空拉？？"很自然的回答："还有很多东西要做 ，可能有时有自己额外的活动等。"也有在想，真的就只有那么一个星期得去教科，有时也难免让更吸引人的活动引诱，找其他周的老师交换。难道，就是因为我们习惯了那么"flexible"，很多时候就变得commitment不够高。总之就是自己的问题。

坦白说，到现在，还是在周日班，是因为我不懂如何拒绝淑华老师。应该是刚上大学时，就想到不便之处，开始拒绝。但，毕竟她是淑华老师，一个任劳任怨那么多年。一个也看着我们长大的淑华老师。在她苦口婆心下，我真的不懂如何狠心的说"不"。是这个真正的原因，我一直还在，不要以为，我真的是那么有心。本身也是安慰自己说，算了拉， 就一个月一次，就可以成就这个活动。就ok吧！说真的，到现在看到我最早一批的孩子，现在都已经五年级了，5岁看到5年级，真的还蛮感动。只是，有时，无法出席时，没有人会帮忙找代课老师的时候真的 会很多怨言。真是罪过、罪过。

总之呢，通过这个营就应该很用心的问自己。"为什么选择留下，留下了就该做什么。"

今天才发现，参加这个营我忘记了帮智婷妈妈带班，sorry aunty. Aunty在找人换班，可能我要跟她对换。因为，也刚刚看到有个gathering在我下个月的上课时间。也算补过咯。也因如此，要我第一次正式担任佛学老师，6岁的孩子很调皮的。好吧！就看看，我到底是否有进步。看招！

那天老师也说了一个故事。有5只鸭子走路去跟天鹅学飞 。路途中，那五只鸭子，一个一个因路途遥远，选择放弃去找天鹅。最终，坚持的鸭子，找到天鹅，也很庆幸的学会了飞。拜师完了，该回家了。鸭子道谢了天鹅老师，竟然就走路回家。看到了吗？几多人也是这样啊！包括我在内，很多时候，明明学会飞，但是还是继续走路。很有意思的小故事。

参加营呢，也让我弄丢了铅笔盒。是很可爱很可爱的铅笔盒。是penguin的大姐台湾买的。还有我生平第一支pendrive,很美的，会闪灯的，是我matrix时的生日礼物。还有，一支笔，是情人节礼物。学cc说，就当布施吧！但是，陌生人，你一定要好好爱惜我的铅笔盒。

congratulation ~~

I was curious when I saw there were so many people click like on the random picture of her.

I thought it is a picture of working in office. lolx.. 

When i clicked into, i was really shocked when I realized that the picture is actually signing an engagement contract.

The first reaction to me was " Wah!!! Congratulation." To be frank, I am really happy, i don't know why.

Again. " Congratulation to both of you Sien Yei, and Tian Yit, must stay sweet and happy ya "

I knew both of them 3years ago during the part time job in Genting. I can't remember I knew he or she first, but it doesn't matter.  ( it was really a great memory to be there, and I miss the PASSED time).

I met him through Lapi ( quite good friend of me in genting ). Not really know him much by right, while, maybe all of us is the part timer and we are seem to be discriminated by the permanent staff somehow. So, the relationship among the part timer is quite ok... Everyone is helping each others. 

Then I met her. (Should be by chance, we were allocated in the same room). She has graduated during that time, and in the process of applying for scholarship to pursue her master study. We went to work together share the story of each other. And I think she assisted me as I was "junior" part timer. Haha!! 

(I can't remember, whether we are actually good friends?) 

(I don't remember why 3 of us + lapi will mix together one night to view the night scene in the " Couple Park , Genting.)

(What I can sure is that there are some pieces of memory with them. It's so so so little but CLEAR.)

I remembered I worked again there after a few month didn't work. I met her again. (most of them go to work very frequent. As they study in KL area.)  

Lapi told me he and she ON dy. Wah... really? It was shocking news.. then sure I wanted to confirm with her. I still remembered the answer of her was "still pending". She was considered the issue that he is younger than her. But she know he is a very good guy and he will treat her so well. So she just duno how to make the decision. I was encourage her too ( if not mistake, as I am quite kepo on this kind of couple thingy and hope the friends around find their Mr / Miss Right, HAHA)

At the end of the day, after working for three day. By the time the last meeting with she, their status were still ON PENDING.

Stopped working in Genting when I start the university life. 

Undoubtedly, he, she and me, have loss contacted. ( Should be a common case happens to everyone, lolx). but luckily! specially credit to Facebook which allow me to get the updated news of he and she sometimes. )

One day, I saw a photo of a pair of couple incidentally . The characters inside were so familiar. I clicked on it, and it is he and she... 

The first reaction is Wah!!! Congratulation." (It was exactly the same reaction of me after a couple of year later when I saw their engagement ceremony.) 

I was really happy to see that and for sure I did congrats them personally. 

Last weeks

I saw the photo of engagement. Still happy  =P

Friends congratulation. You are really matching. 

And the comment of me in the photo of them is " congraz, I want to attend your wedding."

Sincerely, I cannot witness the starting of them and the engagement. But I really hope to witness the marriage of them through myself. Haha!! but don't know I have the chance or not.

He and she maybe are just two passengers that pass through my life. But I don't know why i was so so so happy to see them to be together and marry. The memory is short but SIGNIFY.( have to clarify that maybe the total times of us seeing each other not more than 10 times, haha!!! )

There are always people walking in and out in our life. For me, everyone is so SPECIAL. we will lost contact for sure, we have no so many free time to contact everyone whoever met. But appreciate each of them, who colour the blank pages in your "life".  

It's really hard for a couple to hold hand in hand in years and decide to step into the doorstep of marriage. There are mixture of sweet, bitter, happy, sad, etc in the story of couples. It's doesn't matter.
t the end of the day, those who know the importance of their partner, able to walk into the marriages. It is so fortunate and blissful.

He and she